PMR Result.

Assalammualaikum! :)

Okay well, see my title? Haa, Pmr result. Tediaaa, harini dah 25 haribulan, result keluaq 19 haribulan. Baru nak post pasal result? Okay, aku macam busy sikit sekarang. Haha tak sempat nak update blog. Meh la sinii nak cerita sikit, k sikit jaa.

19/12/2012.

Aku bangun awal. Lepastu aku online Facebook, wish good luck dekat kekawan yang nak pi ambik result esok. Well, mentang mentang aku tak pi ambik. K malam sebelum tu, time otw balik dari Terengganu, mama cakap esok kita jejalan kat Kl, tkpayah tension pasai result. Last last tak jadi. Haha. Aku takut sangat. Adik aku dok pujuk aku suruh message jah, tapi aku taknak, geram lah dok paksa paksa sampai aku marah marah dia. Kahkah ambik hang kai. Lepastu aku call ika, k ika dapat 8A, call teha, teha dapat 8A, call aida, aida dapat 8A. Aku? Humphh aku tanya depa result aku, tapi depa kata taktau. Gila, aku semakin nervous. Seriously. Lpastu, anyah kata, "Weh aku dah sent message tu. Tapi lambat, line busy kot." Aku pelik. Mana dia tau angka giliran aku??!! Pelik. K sampai sekarang aku taktau mana dia dapat. K aku makin nervous. Duduk tak senang dah. Mama pun sama. Haha. Then, abah call pejabat, tapi malangnya depa taktau lagi result sebab slip Pmr takdak dekat depa lagi. K lepastu aku dapat tau Uje, Nisa dengan Jat Kimi dapat 8A. Aku?!! K sabar ja. Lepastu dok online lagi, tetiba aida sent message kat Facebook. "Izza, hang dapat 7A1B" Aku terkejut. K ada perasaan happy terselit di situ. Sebab aku tak expect pun aku akan dapat result macam tu. K Pmr susah. Lepastu aku tnya lah, subject apa yang B. Dalam hati, harap harap bukan Maths atau Science. Kalau tidak, I'm dead -.- Aida cakap, Agama Islam. Tediaa, aku orang Islam, tapi Agama Islam dapat B. K takpa, tapi rasa lega sikit sebab Maths dgn Science dapat A, syukur alhamdulillah. Hm lepastu aku mintak dekat Teha number Cikgu Ijan sebab Aida cakap dia tengok result aku dekat Cikgu Ijan. Ok mama pun call Cikgu Ijan, k Cikgu Ijan cakap aku dapat 7A1B, alhamdulillah :'> Lepas mama letak phone, tetiba dapat message, k 7A1B. Aku dah boleh tersenyum time tu. Hikhik. K lepastu nak pi jejalan, haahaa baru boleh pi tapi dah lewat, abah dah nak pi kerja. Kalau tidak boleh abah drop kat situu. K aku memang nak sangat dapat 8A, nak sangat. Memang nak sangat lah. Tapi nak buat macamana, takdak rezeki. Mungkin ada sebab sebab yang tertentu kenapa Allah tak kabulkan doa aku. Tapi, aku cukup bersyukur sebab aku dapat stay dekat Mrsm Kubang Pasu :'> Alhamdulillah. Bersyukur sangat. Tak sia sia usaha aku selama ni, walaupun usaha tak banyak mana pun. Heheheeh.

23/12/2012

Aku bangun pagi, bersiap nak pi maktab. K sampai dah Mrsm Kubang Pasu. K abah pi bayaq yuran makan dgn dobi. Alhamdulillah, tahun ni Rm 540 ja tu pun sebab dah ada bayaq sikit. Tahun lepas Rm 900+ Ok lepastu ambik slip Pmr, gambar graduasi, sijil graduasi. Lepastu naik atas pi Psp, bayar duit buku teks yang hilang tu. Buku Sejarah dengan Bahasa Arab. Wahhh, cantiknya Psp! :D Okay lepastu aku nampak kami punya kelas dah cat dah color kuning. Haha okay, nampak ceria sikit. Yang syoknya, waktu sampai tu, aku terjumpa shahira. Yeay! Seronok. Lama tak jumpa. Ok, sembang sembang sat. Lepastu aku pi jumpa Puan Adibah. Hehe rindu Puan Adibah. "Saya tengok result kamu, okay la tu, lagi pun Agama Islam memang ramai yang dapat B" Ok Puan Adibah cakap macamtu. K lepas cakap, aku keluar pejabat, sedih terus sebab tengok tengok Shahira dah balik. Hurm tak sempat snap picture :/ Ok takpalah, takdak rezeki. Sebelum tu terjumpa Cikgu Azizi dekat pejabat. Dia tanya apa yang B? Aku cakap Agama Islam. Lepastu cikgu cakap "Tak pi surau la tu" Hahaha. Lepastu terjumpa Cikgu Zul. Okay lepas tu, pi beli barang barang sekolah, baju sekolah apa semua. Yeayy! Tak sabaq nak sekolah. Lepas beli, balik kampung. Paksu dgn maksu suruh aku pilih bag, hehehe yeayy dapat bag :D Rezeki, alhamdulillah. Tkpayah beli bag sekolah dah kannn. Okay tu jalah nak cerita. Hehehe. Alhamdulillah, walaupun takdapat 8A, aku dah bersyukur sangat. At least aku dapat stay Mrsm Kubang Pasu and dapat Kiks tahun depan. Inshaa Allah. Bagi kawan kawan aku yang kena buat rayuan, aku doakan hampa semua dapat masuk balik. Inshaa Allah. -Kalau hampa perasan, banyak kali aku tulis "k". Haha k, baru aku perasan. Assalammualaikum :)

*Terima kasih, Ya Allah. Hamba dah cukup bersyukur dengan result yang hamba dapat. Alhamdulillah :')

School.

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM.

I just want to share about my life in my school. Okay when I was in form one, when I knew I got an offered to go to Mrsm Kubang Pasu I was so happy but at the same time I just did not know should I go? And finally I went to until now I’ve graduated, alhamdulillah. My matrix number was 10031. When first I stepped my feet to that school, I was too excited and surely I was scared too. I had seven awesome roommates. They were Atikah, Adilah, Yong, Aina, Syai, Iffah and Tasha. I still remember the first night in the hostel, I could not sleep, so me, Yong, Kak Wawa, Kak Irah, Kak Imah, Kak Najwa and I could not remember the other, but they were form two, we were lepak-ing at the jabatan until four a.m. And the next day, I slept in the Dewan Besar when our principal was talking on the stage. Hihihi. I did not cry because home sick or anything. I liked to be there. But when I was in form two, I always cried and I wanted to go back to my home. I did not know why. Everytime my parents called me, I would cry and if my parents came to my school to visit me, I would cry when they wanted go back. I did not know why, I cried until I am form three. The weird thing is, I never cried because wanted to go back when I was in form one -.-‘

FORM ONE.

When I was in form one, I did not know all the forth batch’s name. I was a silent girl. Maybe :P I would be as noisy as burung murai if I was with my closed friends. They were my roommates and some of my classmates. I rarely talked with the boys when I was in form one and I did not know them. I just knew my classmates. But, I knew Amnan Hibrahim when I was in form one because he wore a pink sandal when he was in form one. Hehh. When the second intake came to our school, I had a bestfriend named Nurlina Azmi. She always be with me and we were always sticked together. But, we had one conflict. Then, we were not a bestfriend anymore liked before. By then, I had no one to stick with me. I just friend with all people. They were nice. Nothing much interested when I was in form one. When I was in form one, I knew A. Hehh and some of the form three students. I still remember Kak Zulfah, Kak Pink, Kak Sarah and Kak …. humph I forgot her name. They were form three and me and Lina was very closed with them and we always go to their room. I miss them :’/ 

 FORM TWO.

I started to know my friend’s name. But, not all of them. My roommates when I was in form two were Yong, Syai, Farhana, Syaz, Pikah and Mimi. We were not as closed as kuku and kulit. I had a group, named Kerabat Crew. Hehh. This were awesome. Tapi kami teruk. Heh. They were Yong, Syai, Fatin Anisa, Intan Suhana and Iffah. Tu ja kot. We had done many bad things. Sometimes, we did not go to surau, roll call, morning call, usrah, morning, evening or even the night prep. Sometimes okay. Hihihi. The teachers started to know about us and finally Kerabat Crew dibubarkan. But still we were close. Then, Tasha, Aina and Iba were always with us too. I really miss when we open our fasting together in iron room. We would buy many foods and shared them. It was awesome seriously I miss these moments. At night, we watched movies together. I still remember Yong and Syai bullied me. They put make up on my face and I looked like a clown. I almost cried. There were two or three drops of my tears on my cheek I guess. Heh. I still remember, Fatin Anisa always brought Bubu to her room. She stole Bubu because she knew that I could not sleep without Bubu. Bubu was a pink teddy bear from MA actually. I was very closed with Intan Suhana when I was in form two. Every night, we would sleep together. But, before sleeping, we would go to the toilet and washed our face, brushed our teeth and put some bedak sejuk on our face. Hehh. I miss this so much. I still remember, we went to War Museum in Penang. After we went there, we went to Sunway Carnival if I’m not mistaken. Then, me, Intan and Yong bought a domo bag. They were very cute, as cute as Teletubbies. Hihihi. Nisa also bought the domo bag. I miss the moments when I was in form two. Many sweet things happened. But, one things happened and we were not as close as we were. It was my mistakes. I am sorry guys, I am sorry for being bad on that time. I am sorry, Fatin Anisa, Intan Suhana, Syai and Yong. I was too stupid on that time. I just could not think carefully. I am sorry, because of me, everything was ruined. We were not as closed as we used to, because of me. I am sorry. Seriously, I miss you guys, so much missing you guys :’(

 FORM THREE.

Here I knew all my friend’s name. Hihihi. The form three year is the year for us to struggle for our Pmr exam. My roommates were Tasha, Syaffi, Farina, Farah, Una, Balqis and Chibi. They were very nice. I was very closed with Farina, Tasha and Shikin on that time. Then, I started to close with Shikin, Nisa, Shahira and Aliah. We went to outing. I still remember when Shahira and Shikin mad at me and Nisa. Then, when we went back to hostel, we were very scared and did not know how to apologize to them. Me and Nisa cried. Huh. I named Shikin’s big teddy bear named Shishi :) I started to talk with the boys when I am form three, now. I talked with Shazi and Arif mostly. They were my classmates. And they understood me. When Pmr was became closer, me always studied with Alya Afina. Then, with Ika Farahah and Qatrun Syifaa. I always slept in Ika’s room. Their cubemates were awesome! Seriously. They were Teha, Yani and Aida. Started on that time, we became closer. We studied together. I was very happy with them. Shahira told me that, someone asked her why we were not as closed as before. Hehe. I never thought, there had people who noticed it. It was nothing actually. I did not and never forget her. We talked as usual. But, I did not stick with her like we used to. After Pmr ended, it was very awesome. We had Migty, Annual Dinner and Graduation Day. Our time were very packed. Our Migty was not as long as usual because we could go back home earlier than before. But, I enjoyed the Migty. After Migty, we had Annual Dinner in Darulaman Golf and Country Club. It was Arabian night. A few days after the Annual Dinner, we had Graduation Day! Yeahh, we had graduated! On our Graduation Day, something bad happened to me, but thanked Allah, my partner helped me. He walked as slow as I walked. Hahaha. Alhamdullillah. Everything was fine. The best thing was, I got an awesome partner. Guess who? Eh enough. Seriously, I miss those moments, from form one until form three. Please, do pray for us, 1997’S and 4^th batch 100 percent 8A’S. AMIN :’) I hope, 4th batch, we will meet next year in Mrsm Kubang Pasu, in 2013, INSHA ALLAH. AMIN :’)

Alhamdulillah, we've graduated :'D

Result PMR 2012.

ASSALAMMUALAIKUM.

RESULT. Ok next week, me and the 1997’s will get our Pmr result on 19^th of December 2012. Insha Allah. *myheartbeatbeatsfaster* I am totally scared I repeat I am totally scared. Sometimes I think I can get 8A’S but sometimes I think I can’t. This just make me scared. People told me, “do confident to yourself, I know you can”, “hey, you are one of Mrsm student, I am sure you can get a flying colors result” and many more. Aunty, uncle, not all Mrsm student are excellent actually. And I am not one of the student who always being in the top 10, top 20, or even top 50 rank in my school for the result. Any result. Many people, are more brilliant than me. Okay back to the story, I don’t know but for the time being I just can pray because I’ve done the exam. Only tawakkal to Allah. The saddest thing is, I can’t see my friends crying and smiling because they are happy with their result. Happiness crying :’) I can’t return to Kedah on this 19^th of December because my dad has to work until 21^st of December. Maybe, I will take my result at my school on 23^rd of December. This is so sad. If I get 8A’S, it will be the best day ever in my life because I can share the happiness with my friends. Everyday I do pray to Allah , I really hope 4^th batch 100 percent get 8A’S in our Pmr result. Our parents, teachers, seniors, juniors and all the family of our school sure will be proud of us :”) I still remember, Puan Adibah said to me and Ika “I’m totally can’t wait to see the form three’s Pmr result” and she smiled. I could see that she really hopes that we all can get 8A’S. I hope so. So, even though I can’t go and take my result in school, I hope all of us will get 8A’S in our Pmr 2012. AMIN :’)

Cerita aku,

Assalammualaikum. Suatu malam aku tegur A dekat chat on Facebook. Kami chat. Tiba tiba A cakap kalau izza tak boleh jadi awek A, izza jadi adik angkat A boleh? Aku cakap aku tak nak. Lepastu A pun tanya lah dah tu aku nak jadi apa? Aku pun dengan sangat tak malu cakap dekat A yang aku nak jadi yang halal bagi A. Aku takut nanti A cakap macam MatLuthfi pulak. Ayam, kambing? Nasib baik A tak cakap macam tu. A cakap boleh tapi sebelum tu kena haram dulu. Muehehe mengarut betul A ni. Aku pun cakap lah dosa ooo. A cakap aku kena jadi awek A lah kan? Ok aku cakap tak boleh. Lepas tu A cakap okay jadi adik angkat A k? Aku cakap aku tak nak. Aku suruh A bagitau kenapa dia nak aku jadi adik angkat A. A kata sebab A tak ada adik perempuan, lepastu sebab izza tak nak jadi awek A and sebab A suka izza. Aku sangat terharu, macam nak nangis pun ada. Tapi tak semudah tu aku boleh percayakan A. Aku rasa seronok dan happy sangat sebab sebelum ni A tak pernah pun cakap macam tu. Eh pernah lah, tapi lepas A cakap, dia akan cakap yang dia hanya bergurau. Aku sedih. Sebab tu sampai sekarang aku masih tak percayakan A. Aku tak tahu nak cakap apa. Jadi, aku bagi link blog aku dan aku bagi A baca satu post tu pasai A. Aku harap A faham kenapa. A cakap dia faham. Aku lega dan malu. Ya, aku suka dekat A dari umur aku tiga belas tahun. Aku seronok sangat kalau dapat text atau chat dengan A. Tapi setiap kali kami text atau chat, mesti A akan cakap apa apa yang membuatkan aku sakit hati. Selalunya macam tu la. Sekarang, aku cuba untuk berubah. Sebelum ini, jarang sekali aku single. Selalunya in a relationship lah. Ngehngeh. Bila aku dah berhijab, aku cuba untuk berubah, untuk menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik. Aku tak nak dipandang hina oleh Allah. Aku tak nak ada hubungan hurm okay senang cakap couple dengan mana mana lelaki. Aku masih sedang mencuba. Aku nak biasakan diri, tak bercouple. Aku nampak perbezaannya. Dulu, waktu ada boyfriend, cell phone sentiasa di tangan dan sentiasa vibrate menandakan ada message atau ada orang call. Tapi sekarang, cell phone pun entah kemana. Duit pun tak perlu dibuang untuk topup yang membazirkan semata-mata. Aku masih sedang mencuba. Aku hanya nak berkawan dengan semua orang, aku nak sayang semua orang. Dan aku juga nak disayangi oleh orang lain. Aku manusia biasa yang perlukan kasih sayang. Apabila aku sedang mencuba, tiba tiba datang pulak A. Ini mungkin cubaan daripada Allah. Saat yang aku tunggu tunggu selama ini. Tetapi, aku tetap tak boleh terima A sebagai boyfriend aku sebab aku dah cakap dekat diri aku yang aku perlu dan harus cuba untuk tidak bercouple. Sungguh aku cakap, aku sangat sukakan A. Walaupun A layan aku macam humph, aku tetap suka A. Walaupun dulu A selalu cakap yang aku ni playgirl, aku tetap sukakan A. Aku suka A dah lama. Tapi sekarang bila aku sedang berubah, A datang kembali. Muncul kembali dalam hidup aku. Waktu kami chat, sungguh aku cakap, aku macam nak cakap yang aku terima A. Tapi, aku tak boleh. Aku memang sayangkan A, tapi aku tetap tak boleh terima A. Aku terus cakap pada diri aku, aku perlu kuat, aku tak boleh lemah macam ni. Sungguh aku rasa sangat lemah waktu itu. Aku nak sangat terima A tapi aku perlu tahan, aku tak boleh terima A, aku harus berkawan sahaja dengan A. Aku takut, terlalu takut kalau aku gagal, sebab aku seorang perempuan yang senang sukakan dan sayangkan seseorang. Aku juga lemah kalau lelaki cakap macam humph susah nak cakap ya. Aku takut sangat malam tu. Alhamdulillah, A dapat terima apa yang aku cakap, sekarang kami hanya berkawan. Mungkin ini ujian Allah untuk aku. Aku perlu kuat. Kalau betul A sukakan aku, dia pasti cari aku nanti dan kalau betul jodoh aku dengan A, pasti suatu hari nanti Allah temukan kami :’) 

Hello :x

Assalammualaikum. Okay, long time no post ya. Haha lol. Okay then, now is December ya December. Dude, next week me and my bestfriends and my cousins and my friends and my batch and 1997’s will get our Pmr result.  Awesome right? I’m totally scared. It’s killing me, peeps! Oh I have to get 8A’s. I really want 8A’s seriously seriously.  But I’ve done the exam and it was not as easy as ABC for sure. I’m scared really I’m scared :’/ Please do pray for me yaaaa. Okay now lets start the story babehhh!  What story? I don’t know and I’ll write what my fingers will type. Ehh just read it. Okay I’m sad seriously sometimes I’ll cry because of no reasons I don’t know why. Too many things maybe, but don’t know what things. This is weird. I’m staying in Selayang now because my dad got an offered from Maju Junction. So, he worked there since June if I’m not mistaken.  We just moved here since November 2012. I came here for one week. Then, on 2nd December I came back here and staying here until now. Only me, my dad, mom and haikal are here. My two sisters are still in Kedah. They’ll come here at the end of December inshaAllah. Seriously bored k bored. Everyday I just woke up then make breakfast, eat, watching tv, sleep, take bath, pray, eat and blablabla. I will do the same things everyday. But when the clock shows it is 7.00 p.m. , I’ll wait for my dad to come back from working. Everyday I’ll wait for my dad. He usually reached home at 7.00 p.m. something. It’s late. Surely, my dad tired. At night, we’ll eat together and my dad will sleep early. Okay then but in weekend we’ll go out to the mall or something. Last week we went to Malacca and it was awesome! InshaAllah, next week we’ll go to Terengganu for three days maybe. Then I’ll get my result a few days after came back from Terengganu. Hello just totally can’t wait. *sigh. I just can’t imagine what result I’ll get. Will I get a flying color result? I don’t know, seriously. I only want one alphabet in my result slip which is “A”. I want 8A. Okay lets talk about other things because it just made me scared and I can’t breath oh my it’s killing me. Nervous. K stop. Hello next year is 2013. Woowwww! I’m getting older okay older not bigger. Hahaha lol. I wanna be skinny. I don’t want to be fat. Serious people I’m serious. I have to diet next year no matter what. Ohhh can i? I don’t know but I have too :/ I’m getting jealous when I see those girls at the mall or anywhere who is skinny oh my I’m jealous dude seriously. I’ll try yeah I’ll try. Please faint if you seeing I’m skinny next year because I’ll be as pretty as Taylor Swift. Haha lol. Just joking. Don’t think I was serious. I love to watch American next top model :D Ehh I wanna join the Asia next top model. Haha k this will be awesome. Haha this is only a dream. Yeahh day dream. Eh what I’m merepek-ing? Okay I think that’s all. Bye assalammualaikum :’D